again??!

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“Seriously, I am so confused than I have ever been..”

I have asked for this for the longest time, and now that I have had my prayers answered why is it that I am still having mixed emotions about all these? I mean, I am finally home, I have my dog with me, I am a bit free to do what ever I want every night (just via net) — but I’m not happy. WHY??

You know, I have been thinking alot about these and maybe its because I came  from a three-year-live-away-from-home life that I am having a hard time coping up with my life back here at home. I thought that if I come back home, my life would have less pressure but as it turns out, its just the same and now I don’t know what to ask anymore.

A year and a half ago I wanted  to come home because I want to have a job and to try to live my dreams, be free, meet new friends, find that someone I am destined to be with and just be with my family and be happy. But now, two months and counting from the day my wish was granted I want to have a job so I could come back to live again with sleepy and just be free.

I am so confused -  so confused that even if I’m home I’d stay inside my room, cry at night (sometimes) and just talk to myself and promise myself that everything’s going to be just fine and that things would  somehow turn out the way I have imagined it to be..

Project So-eX

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“Your world is my world..”

A few months back, whilst living my unproductive life and listening to a Justin Bieber song, a thought came across my mind — Is it really possible to have friends from all over the world?

I wasn’t really sure how to go about making friends from all over the world, until it hit me — it all depends on the wonders of the interwebs! Thinking way-way back  i remembered that i was so fascinated with this messenger called Skype because of the little flag icons it has and i’ve always thought i could put Skype to good use — and so i did.

It’s actually very interesting to get to know people from all over the world. I’m amazed how different each individual is. How they introduce themselves and how they actually speak to you. What things they want to talk about and know and such. I guess the influence of each individual’s culture plays a big part in determining what kind of person you’ll be.

I’ve actually set a goal to know at least one person (male/female) per country. But after a few months of trying to, i think that it is quite hard to achieve because of the time difference.. I only get to talk to people from countries that fall into my time gap (just for people who stays up so late and wakes up early in the morning).

Im still having fun knowing and learning alot. And its such a nice experience. I would post features regarding this project and you will be amazed at how different each person is.

This project is actually a good and fun way to learn something and do something with my unproductive life as of the moment.

another day

“Look through my eyes..”

Another day, another year..

I was actually planning to change the theme of my blog today to mark the start of a brand new year of my life but i couldn’t find anything that suits me (or at least something close to show what i feel or think). So im sticking to this one.

Things to be done (at least for today):

• project requirements — check well sort of
• tell buddy off – done, awaiting response
• look for possible jobs — pending
• re-think – of what? i still dont know
• think of what to re-think – hehehe

Oh i don’t know. but i love the weather today, no sun just breeze (sorta cold so way better than the past couple of days). You’re right Kuya Kim — we are indeed getting a rest from that super hot El nino effect.

You know, this is kind of getting me out of my wits, how do you actually edit the font sizes of your blog.. Ive been trying to mess up with wordpress tools but i couldn’t seem to figure out how to, how i wish there’s just a button where you could just select the fontsize. Why do they have to make things too complicated. — i have to figure that out *keep* figuring it out is the right phrase.

Haberdey!

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“I am blessed and that can’t be changed”

My late birthday blog.

It actually took me some time before i blogged because I wanted to really feel how happy I am last Tuesday (march 2 my actual birth date).

I’d have to admit i was super down and sad the past couple of days or months and i didnt even realize that there are certain blessings in life that you just don’t seem to feel or even see but they’re there.

On with the thank yous:

• For good health
• For the blessings i failed to see and be thankful for but was still given to me
• For everything

Actually, its a good start of another year in my life because, just a day before my birthday, i had 3 projects in line and finally ill get some extra money..

Thank you God for everything i know you’re always there and you’ve never left me and you never fail to remind me that in so many different ways.

I know i am blessed and that can’t be changed, and i love living my life because i learn and i get surprised every now and then. It gets tough but those days too shall pass.

late year ender

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“If you’re happy and you know it, clap your hands”

To start off my late year ender blog I’d like to greet everyone a very Happy New year!

In all fairness my thirty-first was totally different from last year’s. It went from most horrible to an “ok” event of my life (and hoping that it’ll be a “getting better” next year).

Anyway on with my year ender:

I’ve been thinking (as usual) and i gues my 2009 was my year of realizations and hurt.. Pure learnings about relationships and stuff. I’m considering it as my almost ultimate “trying time” (relationship wise) because i’ve been tested as to how much i love that certain person and how far i could go. And now, if someone asks me if i really love sleepy that would be a definite “yes” and im saying that just because i could close my eyes and just accept what he throws at me even if it kills me inside. But if someone would ask me if i think its worth it then i’d say “NO”..

But every year God never fails to make me feel that I am not alone, because in spite of all the pain and hurt i’ve been going through he’s still there and he still answers my prayers.I know that things happen for a reason and that God knows what’s best for me so i just have to go with the flow with that.

In all honesty, the only one who keeps me sane from all these is God so im holding on to him.

And so i can say that my 2009 was an “ok” year for me.. not a happy year, but an “ok” year..