Its been more than a year since the covid-19 outbreak, I haven’t even finished my ‘pandemic blog post’ and here we are like dejavu, doing it all over again. Back to square-one and much worse.
Nothing has changed, thanks to our very inefficient President and government. With the even more infectious covid variants, the infections are fast rising causing majority of the hospital beds to be in full capacity. Alot of people still has no work, transportaion is still such a hassle and the much needed vaccines are not yet purchased.
When you think about it, its like our country has no way out of this pandemic because while all the other countries around us are getting vaccinated and moving forward, we are just sitting here waiting for nothing. People are getting so tired already — tired of getting scared and paranoid and tired of the uncertainty of it all.
I, personally, never imagined that anxiety will get to me because of this pandemic. I was called back to working on-site after a year of working from home, and though I am very grateful that I have work, my stress levels are far more than what I expected. I now get indigestion at the end of each day because of my being paranoid over the virus.
I had no problem wearing a mask and a faceshield before but now that its been over a year and that we have to wear double masks, it just makes me feel very tired and claustrophobic.. It is SO hard to breathe and I would find myself, more often than not, in a hurry and panicky just to enter the house, my only safe haven, to remove the masks and grasp for air.
I never thought I’d find myself feeling so tired to face another day just because breathing is such a heavy task. Even more so, I never thought I would miss breathing normally.
My hands have turned so wrinkly and dry because of the alcohol and disinfectant wipes that has now become a part of our lives to use ‘generously’ because everything you touch might get you sick. My own phone’s biometrics could not even recognize my fingerprints anymore.
I really hope that this pandemic ends soon, and though it might not be back to our usual ‘normal’ ways, a little bit of normalcy would be fine just to touch base with how things were before.